Beautiful mess

That scent of Vanilla in my mind.

Warhaus – Love’s a Stranger

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5 year plans

Do you have 5 year plans? 3 year plans?

I used to think I’m good at those. Before moving to Berlin, I had a 3 year plan in my mind. I am still climbing the steps, only slightly slower as imagined.

However, it’s interesting to think about my past 5 year plans. When I was a teenager, the magic number was 24 for me. I thought by the time I would be 24, I would do all the serious things – find the love of my life, get married, start a family, have a house, settle down. Then of course, it didn’t happen. When I got 24, I thought: 5 years…

In one of my favorite movies, Happythankyoumoreplease, one of the characters quote an author, who said in every 5 years, you end up looking back at your life, and find that the moment you are in right now, has become totally silly, lost its meaning. Is it?

Amanda Palmer – In My Mind

2 Jahren in Berlin

27 October 2015. That’s when I left Hungary with a big and a small bag, a paper bag and some food for the train travel taking me one way only.

The last two years were some of the best in my life.
I love Berlin and I am grateful for everything it has given me.

Jonas Hofmann – One Day Berlin – Timelapse / Hyperlapse Short

One way ticket

2 years ago, I was spending my last day in Hungary, knowing I have my one way train ticket to Berlin. It was an exciting time, with high hopes, I was full of enthusiasm and nothing could’ve stopped me.

One of my best friends, Bátyó (my Brother, who is a girl, and whose younger brother I am) sent me this song then. She got me. She was also the one giving me one of the best advices after moving here and in doubt. I was in a very uncertain situation after two weeks, when I had to leave the Airbnb room I had for the first few weeks, one day prior to what we agreed on and I had no clue where to go. Until that point, it never happened to me that I didn’t know where I would sleep at night.  I remember telling her how desperate I felt, and she told me:

“Kati. This is the perfect opportunity for you to practice patience.”

I thought I could drown her in a spoon of water for this advice 🙂 Since then, this advice has proven to be the best one I could’ve ever gotten. I keep telling this to myself when I get to risky/unknown situations. Nothing’s worth worrying – it doesn’t solve anything.
I – on the other hand – do.

Thanks again for the perfect advice and for the best soundtrack for my last night in Esztergom!

Tracy Chapman – She’s Got Her Ticket

Earworm

I got the I Saved Latin tribute collection for Wes Anderson movies for my birthday. This song is played by the Phox. It is stuck in my ears for days now. 🙂

The Zombies – The Way I Feel Inside

Dissolution of tensions

Our yoga instructor used to use the phrase during the meditation session at the end of the class: “you can feel the dissolution of tensions”. It’s interesting how we carry our tensions for a long time sometimes. Then unexpectedly they come to the surface and then vanish again. When can we know they are gone for good?

Ólafur Arnalds – Brim