Thoughts in my head

I once wrote 50 random things about me in a notebook. “I’d like to be someone’s “Home feeling” – was one of the random things. I wish I could be that.

Depeche Mode – Home

Seekers

Are you happy? Sounds like an easy question, but it’s a tough one. What does happiness feel like? Can you be fully happy as an over-thinker? What is it that makes you happy?

I want people around me to be happy. I want them to be able to grow, get lost and find themselves. I’d like to watch them grow. And I’d like to be cheering them on, stay in the background, and in the front row.

I am grateful and happy for many things. I am in general labelled as a very positive person.

Tomorrow, we are celebrating a friend’s renewed Visa.
Finally an occasion celebrating someone staying here. Berlin. You are a tricky city with so much to offer.

Lotte Kestner – You’re In My Head

Close

Passing the time together is magic. It’s a bubble, most of the times, with close to zero distractions. A safe space. Where it’s ok to act silly as a child, be carefree, but also to address serious topics.

I sometimes wish two people could fully connect. Just for a split second, to fully share feelings.

This Sunday was perfect. If only it wouldn’t have to end.

Cocteau Twins – Lazy Calm

Here and apart

I had an almost perfect life admin day.

I washed the dishes, ran a round of laundry, washed the bed sheets and let them dry on the Sun, cleaned the bath room and the kitchen, dusted the shelves off, took my dog to a check-up, washed him, finished the left overs. I also met a dear friend and while we were sitting outside on my balcony, I did what I like to do: looked inside my apartment.

I was thinking about all my loved ones, who are far away, but are always here with me in my mind. That I am going to see many of them in a few weeks.
I also thought about those I don’t get to see again. But they are also here with me.

Then we made plans for tomorrow.

Gratitude. A friend who visits me regularly. I am a lucky one.

Soap & Skin – What a Wonderful World

Summer heat

I am so glad the weekend is here. The heat took a lot out of me this week. I plan to be efficient tomorrow to run some chores, but after then, the weekend will be a time off.
I’ll hopefully start with a good sleep.

Ray LaMontagne – Summer Clouds

Stand by

The heat hit me today. I cut the day short and was given in for gravity on the couch for the rest of the day. Sometimes, you just have to slow down.

Cyn – Nobody’s Keeping Score

Let it out

Letting out the steam is necessary sometimes. It could be enjoying the sunset or doing some yoga in the evening. Having a glass of cold water. Breathe.

I look forward to my vacation in July.

Oasis – Go Let It Out

Hush

Slow down. You don’t have to always solve everything at once. Sometimes the best move is not to move. To give yourself time. To settle things down. Slow it down.

The Lumineers – Slow It Down

Beautiful Berlin

I love the wildlife and the green areas in Berlin. The birds can be so loud in our courtyard that I hardly hear my family through the phone sometimes.

Today, we went for a walk in Tiergarten, and ended up bumping first into a string quartet, then a lady singing opera. We walked further on, watched the flea market being packed up, then was wandering next to the Landwehrkanal, all the way to Jungfernheide.

I live here for almost 5 years now, and I can’t get enough of this city.
Berlin, ich ❤ dich.

Headlund – Crossing Clouds