That I would be good

We set ourselves up to our own expectations. Often times we let these expectations numb us. But at the end of the day, none of them make a difference in what and how we do.

There are certain things that can be measured. Like the Earth overshoot day, that happened yesterday this year. That’s a fact. We can feel bad about it, or not care. At the end, our reaction doesn’t matter. Whether or not we carry this as a priority with us during our day-to-day chores is what makes a difference.

Then we have the huge and shiny expectations about the perfect love. A picture that was drawn in our heads since our childhood fairytales. When we feel like we have to live up to that expectation, that can be scary. We might end up feeling broken or unworthy. But at the end of the day, love only exists unconditionally. Fitting it into shapes and forms is just a human behaviour. It’s either there or not.

We also tend to come up with scenarios in our heads. If this and that happens, then I would feel this. Or then I would feel relieved. And then it never comes.

Apples and pears should never be compared. As well as expectations and deeds.

I choose the present and unconditional love, with all its vulnerability. In addition, I feel grateful to have love to give. That’s more than enough.

Alanis Morissette . That I Would Be Good


Great companions

I have found many likeminded friends and colleagues in Berlin. The fact that we come to the same conclusions and approach solving issues from different perspectives, yet, with the same aim if reassuring.

I love, when we connect. It’s always a great reminder of the unbearable lightness of being. We are in this together. Don’t ever forget.

Alanis Morissette – Joining You

One year

Today was my last day in my first year at work by this company. I was on a roll today.
However, I felt exhausted in spite of the nice feeling winking at me that I had achieved something. I looked around and felt somewhat old among my colleagues. But I also felt lucky. It’s funny how we can feel so many things at the same time and yet feel senseless.

Fortunately, I have found some good friends among my colleagues who have open ears if needed. Tomorrow is Friday and then I will rest. Bring on the weekend already.

Alanis Morissette – One

You live, you learn

My dear friend, Teona! You just got one year wiser and what a year it has been!
You have made some drastic changes in your life and found your way back to Berlin – I am so happy to have you here again – thank you for all the great memories!

Stay silly. Brilliant. Positive. Worried. Young. Carefree. Open. Curious. Stay You!

Don’t forget: You live, You learn. 😉
Nagyon boldog szülinapot! – La multi ani! ❤

Alanis Morissette – You Learn

Feel like home

Some days just make you realize how lucky you are. That your life is good as it is.
Today, I feel grateful to be here. With all my friends, my health, my amazing dog and this beautiful city that provides you with so many green areas and riversides to use. With the heat and the Sun, and the shade on my balcony. For having learned how to bake pancakes from my Mom.

Today, I am happy.

Alanis Morissette – Thank You

Ode to temporary companions

The big learning from Into the Wild: “Happiness only real when shared.”

In this ever changing temporary arrangement that’s life, I feel grateful for my friends. Those, who share my happiness and support in the bad times. Who are hoping for a better arrangement when needed. Who stick with me, no matter what.

I am also thankful for my temporary visitors. Those, who I bump into and share a part of my path with. Who arrive all of a sudden, making me feel like I have always known them, then disappear, just as unexpectedly. Those, who remind me that there are people alike.

Practicing cherishing the moments spent together, while spent together, without expectations, with no regret and learning to let them go, when their path takes a sudden turn is a challenge.

We are temporary arrangements. We are amazing.

Alanis Morissette – Everything

No pressure over cappucino

It’s funny how history repeats itself. When you get to the same situations time after time. The same unexpected rain, the same Cafe to get dry, the game of lights.

Yet as you move in this time and space, the same experiences get a new colour.
Then you get home with a smile in your face.

Alanis Morissette – No Pressure Over Cappucino


I turned one year more experienced today (counting the days by sleeping). I have changed a lot in the past two years – since I moved abroad -, but this birthday got me in my hometown in Hungary, after a successful 8th half marathon and a nice family celebration on Sunday.

I am grateful for all I have: my family, my friends, the challenges I get to face, the help I get from strangers.

We are temporary arrangements. I can’t wait to see where the wind takes me by this time next year.

Thank you All!

Alanis Morissette – Hand In My Pocket